So I guess stepping away and getting life in order did me good. I feel like I can just finally type whatever. When I picked my title I was so worried I would have to stay within the confines of my topic but lets be real, it is my blog so who cares!
Over the last few weeks I have learned tons about myself as a sahm and just as an individual. I can remember the days of wanting the corner office in the huge skyscraper. I would have my name on the door and a view like no other. For those of you who can follow think Working Girl or Secret to My Success. Each day I am floored that I no longer dream of highrises but of birthday decorations or moms night out!
I mean I am the CEO of our home but honestly some days nothing gets done but creating a mess and keeping B alive. I have turned into that person who constantly wants things picked up and cleaned. I have never ever been that person. It drives me nuts that I am now that person almost as much as a sink full of dishes does. Thankfully hubby could care less and thinks my job is keeping B alive but man I still feel like I should have dinner done and house clean.
Not feeling well lately has so thrown a kink in my plans! Nap time is met with nap time or downtime with The Real Housewives and I never catch up till days later. I hate that. But hubby is happy if the house doesn't stink and he has clean socks. I have been ok with the socks thing but I have to confess dude totally had to wear dirty socks last week. No complaints though, gotta love him.
I am getting good at loading a dishwasher with a toddler unloading and I am a pro at knowing that each time I fill his snack cup I know half of it will be sprinkled throughout the house. I hate the days that my mood or health impacts B but we are hopefully near the end of it. Last week I think we spent more time in doors than any person should. But he was a trooper to say the least.
Life has taken some interesting turns over the last few years. My corner office is now the tub on a night I need to relax and lunch dates are at the park. I don't think in our old home this would have sufficed but where we are now I couldn't be more thrilled.
I have decided I should cut myself some slack. There are going to be days I am super Mom and get everything done and end the day with a happy and full toddler with a clean house to boot. And there are going to be days when the terrible twos win and I collapse in exhaustion while the house looks like a tornado hit it. But either way its mine and I am good with it!
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